Gary took me drinking last night. We somehow ventured upon a rack of shitty Keystone and ran some bus stops and skinned some cats and shot some shotguns. I may have taken a shit in a mailbox. I think it was my own mailbox. Today I will try to work. Unlike the last week, I might get something done.

072619

When one is awake for it, a magnificent sunrise often shows itself, for those wee morning travelers. I need to remind myself to see more sunrises. Among an apple orchard and smelly trash, I came across a pink and magenta sky, rippled into the horizon like folded ice cream. The most basics of nature are sometimes alone all that’s needed… Read More »072519

072519

Pull into the gas station on 93 miles left, see a thick blonde in summer shorts and a cotton tank park and get out. Pull up to the pump and fumble for a twenty and get out, fart around for a second, I am in my own universe again at this point remembering the pump number and dealing with the… Read More »072419

072419

I’m hungry but there’s nothing in the fridge that seems appetizing and I don’t really want to cook. Raining and the tires are bald and I felt some slight hydroplaning last night, so I really don’t want to go out to get food… plus everything close is frozen convenience shitfood. So I write. Woke up with a headache and some… Read More »072319

072319

I’ve broken something in my leg and I pay the real estate fees on this site and my smut site in a week, so it’s time to get working on inside things. And even though I’m writing all this down in Scrivener and trying to “keep a journal”, I’m not posting accordingly. I need to stick to a schedule. I… Read More »060219

060219

Excellent. This keyboard works. I’m just missing some worn away labeling on the lettering, which should be fixed up with some nail polish easy. I love the free store sometimes. Today, we are writing. And creating. For years, I thought the idea of a milk crate bed frame would be just a nifty, cool thing to do. I’ve used crates… Read More »052619

052619

I’ve been watching Tyler for years, reading him for more. I remember him from when he first popped up on the scene and was a weird blonde zoomy sperg who reminded me of a cousin of mine, in his ADHD autist fashion. Now we’re both older, I’m fucked up, and he’s got a frontier explorer beard and more children than… Read More »043019

043019

In the idea of self-betterment, which is what this whole thing was originally about, one must learn how to Love ones self. That’s the essence of all self-help books, in my opinion. In and of itself, that fact is something I might want to expand upon in the future, and how the prevalence of self-help and its billion-dollar industry among… Read More »042619

042619

And yet again i feel as anxious and lonely as I’ve ever been. Just got back from spending most of the day driving to and from, and attending, a wedding. A wedding I didn’t particularly want to attend, but a family wedding, so attendance was almost mandatory. (as I am an adult, i can make my own decisions. But the… Read More »Wedding 033019

Wedding 033019